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Monday, 20 February 2012

10 months til....

About 10 months til wedding day.

SOOOOO much work to do. I had a head start i would say. So far i got the guest list sent to the MOH and the Save the Date ideas are there. April we have a photoshoot, so I guess ONE nice picture will be chosen from the batch and Save the Dates will be made n go out then. Sigh... Invites will be done and will go out by umm..... July. I think its fair, so by september i shud already have my attendees and apologies. The wedding will be super super intimate. Yea, unfortunately/fortunately we shrunk our wedding down ALOT. Times are tough, and after speaking to the hubby we really didn't want to make it a big deal. Our venue in long island, although it is grand... we have the smallest room. :P No more than 100 ppl. So yea, even if we want to make it big later, we wont be able to.

Since the wedding party isnt so big we can concentrate on other things. Like a little extra effort in wedding favors and such. :)

A relative of eddy's sent us a coupon worth 1700.oo to be used for dress and tux rental at white collections. I dunno how to feel about it. I thought it was a gift card at first. Now that i know its a rental... i didnt really think i was gunna rent a dress... and WTH? 1500+ does it really cost THAT much to rent dresses these days. OMG! For that price u can practically BUY a dress. I was sooo shock. The dress I have in mind isnt expensive at all. Lets just say, its still in the 3 digits. And it looks soo classy and pretty. Sooo.... i guess i might just go ahead and buy my dream dress, maybe use this coupon thingy to rent jewelry and stuff.. or a nice white scarf or coat since its gunna be a winter wedding. :P Look at me i didnt even check out the place yet, i already feel this way. Sigh... or maybe i shud rent another dress, one to change into halfway thru the ceremony. I think thats a better idea. :P

OYEA! Shooooeeees! Im still searching for those. Lols...

Bridal party frst meeting set and all for this saturday the 25th. Yess, its when the groomsmen and bridesmaids will finally meet for the first time. Shud be interesting. I think. Lols.

In the midst of it all. We will be hosting a korean ceremony at eddy's church. Well, mainly because alot of his korean church members wont be invited to the actual wedding, we just couldnt accommodate. So we are doing this on the side, just catering ALOT of food and we'll be in korean traditional wear and we'll do the whole prayer ordeal, the pastor can have all his say and do. w.e. So everyone will be happy. Yess... I'll be doing invites for that one as well. :) Crazay stuff i know. OY!

Til next time folks...

Sunday, 13 November 2011

a sunday nite

updating on a sunday nite is anything but easy. but i really wanted to drop in and make a note. Plans, feelings and perceptions... i want to make sure i capture it all before they become different.

Wedding plans have been kinda slow. It turns out after all the meets and greets, congratulation dinners and setting up the bridal party, it actually calmed down. :P I finally make time for myself. And been kinda relaxing. Well sorta. My fiance and i moved in with my family in brooklyn. Parents are looking for a bigger home, and well we're invited in to stay as one big happy family. Def. couldnt say no to the offer. BUT, i def. remember these mommy days. Oy. Breakfast, lunch and dinner all provided. Im on a strict diet thanks to my mom. Even the hubby, one who NEVER eats breakfast... and trust me i've tried, has been eating congee with the family every morning. LMAO. the other day, he woke up with a hungry stomach. lols, he was like, now he understands why i eat so much in the mornings. :D

Unfortunately, every weekend has been more or less, meeting with different RE agents. Looking at sooo many houses, we can no longer differentiate which house had what. I have yet to make plans to check out venue halls. But on a brighter note, the first 2 parts of my 3 part wedding has already been planned. Lols.

Dad and mom came back frm china and well, the chinese ceremony will be held in china next year. Dad will head back earlier to prepare and hubby and i just gotta show and do our parts. SO thats easy enough. Err... i hope.

Then, the hubby wanted to have the korean traditional ceremony at his korean church. So we'll do that after the chinese ceremony. Most likely around november, or october if needs be. And that should make both sides happy.

Finally december is the american wedding. Actually, im still 50-50 about the american wedding. Sigh. I feel like, i'll be wedding out. Today, i was actually thinking why not have a small thing in a nice private lounge or even a destination wedding. Just to give me a break after all these pre-wedding nites. Oy.

On a sad note. I was heating up wax the other nite, sigh... and it overheated the jar popped and ultra hot wax spilled onto my hand. 2nd degree burn. Doc says itll be a month before it heals and yes, expect a lifetime scar. :( SMH. im the worlds biggest klutz.... n now i have a scar to prove it. Sadness*

Sunday, 28 August 2011

Don't You Remember?

Looking back tonight:

Adele's song "Dont you remember?"

Sigh... I just want to thank all the men that came into my life. They were all each very different/unique. And I had fell inlove with all of them, at different points of my life. To think, i held hands with them, promised them that our love was going to last, tell each and one of them, that they were perfect... and truly felt like they were part of me at that moment. I truly fell in love with each and one of them. And for that, i need to thank them. I know I can be so cold. And although they may never read this... but from time to time... i never forgot... and yes... I do think of them. In their own ways. In our moments. Those will never be forgotten. I think I owe it to them... an apology.... that we are now just "strangers again."

Its weird. How two people can come together, look at each others eyes and say/promise eternity... and with a simple goodbye all those things and moments can be just tucked away.

I entered the garden of love at a young age, as i walk down the path of this garden, I picked up my first flower. He was a simple guy with a long stem. He and i spent our days playing games, and we thought to ourselves how wonderful those days were. And with our first kiss we never looked back.

As i continued to walk down that path, i picked up a couple of other flowers and each of them were so different. Some even pricked me and made me bleed.

But today, as i come near to the exit of this garden with the one flower ive chosen to walk out with, i have taken a look at this looong hard path and wonder if i'll ever come back in. And what would happen if I never do.

My mother was right, boys and men are like flowers in the simple garden of love. You can only move forward. But tonight I just want to look back. And although i can no longer see where they are anymore.... but its nice to be able to close my eyes and feel our moments once again. :)